Do you ever get frustrated with life in general? Here lately I've been battling being upset/discouraged with the body of Christ. People that you thought were real and authenic in their walk with Christ turn out to be pretty much just like the world. Then I started wondering who really is real. Is everyone out there just putting on a mask? It seems like a lot of times the only time "Christians" talk about the Lord is on Wednesday and Sunday. The rest of the week is like they're living without any hope, letting the whole world fall on their shoulders. This gets pretty discouraging to me when I see this happening time after time after time. No wonder the world cannot tell us apart from themselves! I know we fall and some times we even fall pretty hard, but we are not to stay down there. The Bible tells us that we are to get back up again. God has also been showing me that marriage isn't everything. I've always have had a mindset that I would marry someone as soon as I finished college or at least have someone special in my life by then. But you know what? Life is more about pleasing myself and what I want, it's about pleasing my God and Savior Jesus Christ. Who am I, to tell Him my plans and what I want Him to do in my life? I am His, I gave my life to Him and must daily do so. A world is dying without Christ. That is what really matters and I need to heed the call of Christ and be an empty vessal that is willing to go and do what God wants. Marriage may indeed be in my future and if so I am so ever grateful but this is not what should drive me to keep going. Marriage may not be in my future, Lord knows that I hope and pray that it is, but maybe it's not what God wants. If this is the case then I must become content with where God has and will place me. I honestly don't know what is instore for my future but I keep pressing on with Christ set before me. Seeing bad examples of how Christ is portrayed makes me want to be like Him, even more so. I'm so glad that I can rest in my Savior and Lord.